it's about that same damn boy

You know i'd kill to have the feeling I have when I'm with this one person. It's an amazing thing when you can feel that happy just being with one person. Not doing anything, not talking, but the fact that they're there just makes it alright. A part of me really wishes I could get over this person. I sit there staring at him, trying my hardest to find reasons to not like him. but I only find myself falling in love with all of his oddities. Every time telling him crosses my mind, he somehow seems to drop subtle hints that he doesn't think of me that way. Or maybe I imagine it. Maybe it wasn't supposed to work out at all. But then why am I feeling all of this? Why have i had this strong of feelings this long? It's just getting so fucking frustrating.

i don't really know what else to say because it's getting so redundant.

Keep smiling. really, I love your smile.

I know the timing isn't great, but these things you just can't plan

Don't think I haven't noticed all those looks you've given me. Looks like that have to be genuine. True? I'm dying to hear the word yes. You can have the best of me, although that isn't saying much because there are times where I feel like the biggest fuck up ever. And if you really think about it, you are the best of me.

I know it, doll. We both have secrets. Mine? I'd die for you. And I don't even think that's an exageration anymore. And maybe when you're reading this, you'll feel terrified, in a way. But then again, I'm terrified.